Hate Me Today

These posts are becoming more and more intermittent because lately I either haven’t had the time or the motivation to write. My dad is kicking me out and I have 90 days to figure out where to go. My dad still doesn’t have any idea what happened. I’ve tried to tell him, but every time I do, I just choke.

I almost killed myself the other day because I was told that I’m worthless and that this is “tough love”. I’ve been cutting again and it’s getting worse. I can’t seem to stop and I’ve run out of space on my arms without it becoming noticeable. I need to find a new place to start slicing.

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2 thoughts on “Hate Me Today

  1. K. Aldaya says:

    I hate when people use “tough love” as some kind of excuse for not wanting to be bothered. Your dad obviously doesn’t understand self-injury at all. It sounds like maybe he thinks you are doing it just to mess with him, which is just ridiculous. It’s horrible what he’s doing and you deserve better. Keep us up to date on how things go. It’s for the best to get away from him if he’s only going to think of his own comfort level over your happiness and life. Please don’t take his issues out on yourself, because you don’t deserve it! You’ve done nothing wrong here so please stop…not for him, but for yourself. I know it’s easier said than done but please try. Next time you are sure you are going to cut call 1-800-DONT-CUT or try some of those lists online of other things to do when you feel like cutting. There’s a small list on my site under the self-injury tab too. When I feel the urge I get down and do pushups until I’m tired. That works well for me and helps keep me fit at the same time. I know it’s hard but hang in there 🙂

    • shadowfox306 says:

      He hasn’t seen the cuts yet, but he thinks that I’m not doing stuff around the house because I’m too lazy. He still doesn’t know and I’ve tried to tell him, but every time, I choke.

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